maybe i prayed to hard....

 i wished for a winter wonder land. thisissoperfect. i really usually don't like so much snow all the time, i hate driving in it, and i don't usually play in it. buut... this year. was totally different. i was craving snow. i was so ready for the morning i had to wake up and dig a tunnel out of my house. so ready. well, i finally got it. snow day. and it had to be the year i am out of school, nice. me and my sister decided god heard my prayers and decided to give us some snow, well he probably fell asleep or something and left the 'lightly snow' switch on, cause THIS is so much more than anyone hoped for.

also, i made a snowman. in my front yard, with gregory. no work in the morning+ no school in the morning+ mapleton+ snow snow SNOW= best. snowman. ever. it was really fun. great way to spend my snowy morning of no school. hooray for no school! 

i am very proud of it. everyone thinks its my little brother max's, snowman though.. except the people who saw us building him in my front yard. they know the truth- i have no idea what to do with my mornings. except to build snowmen. 

yeah, well he died today. when more snow came. its like cloudy with a chance of meatballs. SNOWOVERLOAD. thats okay though, i'm totally fine with it. 

drive safe

elizajane

Here we go again.

I did it again, I replaced friends with food. Nachos this time. It's beginning to be a more common occurrence. Did you hear I'm practically engaged? We aren't totally positive yet... still waiting for the  test results. Lie. funny, but a lie. I like my new job, its really fun. not a lie. I think it will be even better once I move and I don't need to drive as far to get there. My friend came home from Logan, then got his wisdom teeth out. I went and visited him last night, he acted pretty normal the whole time... too bad, I think he would be funny on drugs. Christmas is in a week, can you even believe it? I can't. Its a great time of the year, and its not even feeling like it. Dinner Party tonight though, thats funn, I'm pretty excited! Oh and the 26th, YMAD party. I'm pretty psyched out of mind.

Do you know who this is?

                                                                                              Yes, thats Ramona Flowers.

dreaming of a white christmas

If you could read my mind, here is what it would sound like maybe.
There is something about men in glasses that just..... I can't resist. I absolutely Love men in glasses. and long hair. and sweater vests. or red hair. like fred and george, which by the way, I swear I sat by fred on the shuttle just yesterday... hhot. Taylor Swift is so amazing. I love listening to her. Love. even her Christmas songs. speaking of Christmas, its a week away. its practically here.... ANND THERE IS STILL NOT ENOUGH SNOW. ITS MELTING ALREADY.  :(  I hate it.  I made a chain of paper cranes the other day. its cool, I like looking at it. I'm moving, maybe I'll get my keys today....! My job is going awesome. I love it. its so fun, and the girls are so great. so is my boss, he is waay funny. (cute... way cute. and not gay.) Remember my room? Well its different already. We sold both of our beds, and bought one big one for when I'm gone then home then gone... you know. off and on. Finals... uh. I hate hearing about them, thinking about them, actually doing them, failing them, telling my parents about them..... hate hate hate loathe entirely. I just watched the grinch, its a good one, but Scott Pilgrim vs the World is my favorite movie ever. Brad just got home from his mission two days ago.... HOW FREAKING EXCITING! we are finally have a dinner party with the three greatest families of all time in celebration. im happy :)


now if you turned my mind upside-down it would probably sound like a rainstick. 
work-good, 
ElizaJane

bye bye bed.

My Childhood just walked out the door. I had that bed for yearrs. and the mattress, I had since I was 3 years old guys. and now This is what I am sleeping on now. I'm sleeping on my brothers old mattress on the floor. Don't worry, its for a good cause. I'm working on selling me and Amelia's twin beds and getting her a new bed. cause Im moving. OH. DID I MENTION I'M FINALLY MOVING? ITS TRUE GUYS. Its all working out. now.... I just need to pass my finals next week, which really what I should be doing is studying for them... math on monday. I really don't know how this will turn out. I am doing so badly. what if I fail and... ah... my parents... ohmanohmanOHMAN.

PRAY FOR ME. I think I need it. Thanks guys.
Wish me luck

peace out.

Let it FREAKING SNOW.

I was sitting on the shuttle bus riding to my car. Next to me sat this Samoan man, guy, boy, chico, I'm not sure what to call him, boy- sounds to young, man- just doesn't fit. anyways, he was sitting by me and I had the biggest urge to hug him. He looked so nice, and friendly, just like a big samoan teddy bear. Sometimes I describe people like that but really, this is the first I've actually wanted to give him a big hug and never let go because of it. I had a feeling he wouldn't have minded. But I still didn't. I just stared at him instead.

So I started my new job today, there is so much to remember. howamieverygoingtomasterthis. scary. better than the call center though. like by far.  My little sister started a blog. I'm proud of her. plus my friend Mego started one too. this is getting fun!  today My friend Kim said something wayy funny today. we were talking about animals, and she said she wanted a hedgehog. Don't ask me what they are, I don't think I have ever heard someone real say that word. (except maybe my old boss- he hired a baker who didn't know how to speak english, so he made it his own personal calling in life to teach him. he started with animals like penguins, anteaters, and flamingos. Weird I know. but I think hedgehog may have been another one of those obscure animals he taught the baker.) but Kim wants a hedgehog, and she would name is Regi. She wants one because they are half nocturnal so Regi would be awake in the evenings when she is home from school! I laughed. 

then I realized, thats such a great idea. That would be such a great friend. 

oh, and my sister can raise one eyebrow. I'm so jealous.

Jason Mraz

"Im building a new world for myself and putting new hats on everybody one by one... before I go out I'm gonna have people in tutus, and cops wearing sombreros, bankers with viking hats and priests with panties on their heads. In the world I'm building, everyone shouts hello from their car windows and people have speakers attached to their chests that pour out music so you can tell from a distance what kind of mood they are in, and they wont be too chicken to get naked when the rain comes. "

I love Jason Mraz! I think I would marry him. It's true.

Dear Mr. A-hole.
Thanks for the scam.I would like to let you know, you basically ruined my week, thanks. Don't worry though, someone will get the beds. You weren't worthy of them anyways. But thanks  for the waste of time. 
I hope you have a rotten Christmas. 
Liza. 

yes, yes, I know, my love.

This is how it works, you're young until you're not, you love until you don't, you try until you can't. You laugh until you cry, you cry until you laugh, and everyone must breathe, until their dying breath. So, this is how it works, you peer inside yourself, you take the things you like, and try to love the things you took. Then you take that love you made, and stick it into some- someone else's heart, pumping someone else's blood. Then walking arm in arm, you hope it don't get harmed, but even if it does, you'll just do it all again.

RS


this is one of my most favorite songs, and this is pure genius. 


Its now holiday season, and its cold all the time. I'm freezing 98% of the time. annnnd I still love it. I love listening to christmas music, and drinking hot chocolate, and sitting in front of the fire place, and watching the snow, and reading books. ITs one of the greatest times of the year. eventually I get really sick of it, but then somewhere between August and November I forget that I was sick of it, and look forward to months of cold again. I want to go to salt lake, and walk around temple square. Its my favorite time to go to the temple. they have a new Pirates of the Caribbean coming out on may 20th! but actually I don't know how I feel about that. I want it to be good, but it miiiight not be. buuuut regardless I will probably like it. I'm pretty obsessed with those movies. like harry potter. and lord of the rings. Hey Keith Urban is pretty hot. 

some blizzard. huh.

here's whats up. I totally have a job. in Orem, Part time, 7.50 paying job. ITS THE BEST NEWS EVER GUYS! I am so happy. eh true it is at a clothing store. not my first choice. but its a job. down east basics is where I am going to work, AND it means I can totally move out! I'M REALLY GOING TO MOVE. I didn't really think it was going to happen. but it is. its happening. believe it. I'm trying to. so my only problem is quitting my current job... how. do. you. quit. ?? but I have to do it. and it has to be tonight. crappy but true. so wish me luck.

ThanksGiving is tomorrow. I'm thankful for pie. Apple pie to be exact. 

speaking of thanksgiving. some of my friends are back, for this wonderful holiday. that makes me happy. we went and drank hot chocolate at village inn, cause they have the best hot chocolate. the only problem is, the food smells sooo good. its almost impossible not to buy it. 

I'm a lucky one. I get to see harry potter AGIAN tomorrow! Im thankful for harry potter and ron. and hermione.

the sky has  been so wonderful. as daniel would say, "i just want to kiss it."

so, yeah. 

hey guess what

Harry Potter was so so AMAZING. I'M IN LOVE. OBSESSED. PASSIONATE. WHATEVER. I JUST LOVED IT.
annnd the nude scene? SO over blown. like, my initial thought was " wtf making out with no shirt on? gross. why." but now that I saw it in context, it makes sense. not that I approve, cause i don't, I just don't see it as such a big deal as some people made it.

I live at home, so i guess that automatically gives my parents right to lectures. Just not in my bedroom dammit. this is MY comfortable place. not somewhere for you to come in and make me miserable.

my sister hurt her tail bone. that makes me worried and sad for her. I hate to see her hurt. its horrible. but i think that my sister is awesome.

cauliflower is much better hot with cheese sauce on it.

I have a new song on my guitar. inspired be Mindy Gledhill.

I have used 'spell check' so many times on this post its not even funny. except it is pretty funny cause I just realized it and started laughing.

my painting is turning out fabulous. I love it. that makes me feel so good.

Lemonade is my favorite drink in the world. I love it and will drink it at any time of the day. I also love cheese cake, and thanksgiving is coming up so I am allowed to request cheese cake for dessert. and i think i will.

and today is Friday. what a wonderful word. some of my friends are coming back home to visit for Thanksgiving i.e. Trevor and Mego. that means I can round up megan from orem, and we can go PARTY. whayeah!

NO. SERIOUSLY GUYS.

GREAT NEWS GUYS. IM GOING TO SEE THE WONDERFUL HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS TOMORROW MORNING INSTEAD OF GOING TO SCHOOL. ME AND MY SISTER ARE GOING AND WE ARE FREAKING OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh. and I would marry Fred or George Weasley in a heart beat. Heck, I'd marry them both.

LATER PEOPLE.

Intoxication

Did you happen to notice the weather today? This whole week? Careful. It might decide to rain  water... or snow... or hamburgers and jello....

best. ever.

what I would give to have my own jello castle. 

I would love to see Harry Potter still...

I love lasagna.

HERE ARE TEN REASONS WHY I AM HAPPY RIGHT AT THIS MINUTE 


I love Sarah Kay Benson and I'm going to the Scarlet Pimpernel with her on saturday..... YEA!

nothing smells better than a freshly cut grapefruit---- that should be stitched on a pillow or something.

I have art again tomorrow. we are doing really cool pen and ink drawings with water color over the top, I love it. I am going to start doing them like religiously.  meaning all the time, like I should be doing with prayers or something.

Andy is still alive and well.

I am sending my best friend romantic postcards every other day, I'm sure it makes him laugh. He even might be reading this.... COOOL HUH. Gregory might to. neat!

I found a store in my school that sells cup-o-noodles. for 77cents. yeah. believe it. THATS NOT ALL! I can heat them up in the microwave that happens to be there for FREE. that is a 77 cent lunch. that makes me feel awesome.

I keep having dreams about my soulmate. her name is ChaiDee. (I know you think this might be a little backwards, but don't worry. Its under control)

I love lasagna.

I found this cute Winnie the pooh in German on the internet, and I love watching them. along with that 70 show. those make me laugh so hard.

I can't wait to talk to my sister. she happens to be sleeping right now, but in the morning! I can talk to her about her night. I like hearing what she has to say.

HERE IS ONE REASON WHY I AM UNHAPPY RIGHT AT THIS MINUTE. 


I am not seeing Harry Potter in less than 48 hours like everyone else. If you're (<-- is that even the right your? you're? i have no clue. I just take random stabs at those and hope they are right...) well. if your wondering, I'm very bitter. Im not really seeing it any more mostly cause Gregory had to go get a job. at the cinnamark, and now he is/will be working that night. and I have a feeling he will be working like every night now. thats fine though, I just hope he likes it. which I think he will.



I'm hoping that if I look at life like this, as in more happiness than un... happiness.... then I will realize that my life rocks. and I can live it.

where will I be on the 5th of April in 2011? cause its TOMS international day without shoes. I can tell you where I was on April 5th of 2010,  I was in india. India is a wonderful place. someday I will go back. for now, I will just wear no shoes.

HAPPY? I think so. 

oh and happy birthday alex, I wish you all the happiness in your personal life.

peace out fools.

That whole, "lets be friends" business doesn't last very long. ever. don't let it trick you.

I want to go back to Logan. I want to be there looking at the leaves, playing my guitar, and having wild dance parties, and hanging out with my best friend Trevor. Logan is so beautiful and everyone there is so nice. I can't believe the difference between USU and UVU. It amazes me really. like, at UVU no.one.talks. no one cares, no one wants friends. Me? yeah. I like life. I want to talk. I want friends. but no one there is very accommodating thats for sure. I mean, I have made some friends, but the two friends I actually like- they went to high school with me. So some new people would be nice to. but, me and my two friends new friends from high school are taking Yoga next semester! I'm so excited. these girls are great.

I'm currently finding a new job. Status: employed but hating it. applied for 5+ jobs. waiting.

later gator.

Red.

usually there

are tears. 

they are what

keep me going.

for once, I was

balanced. sane. happy.

now I broke it. 

but your still here. will

it stay that

way?

it usually doesn't.

for once, there

are no tears.

no regrets. no second 

thoughts. life

goes on.

stay in my 

life. please. 

Would you rather...

Would you rather live in a world where Fall did not exist OR where all we ever knew is Fall?

I would rather live where all I knew was Fall. Those beautiful colors, I could never, never get sick of them.  Sadly, winter always comes. and it came today. Snow, guys, snow. This is the time of year where my desperate wish to join the Circus comes back. A traveling Circus, with trains, elephants, and lions and tight-rope walkers and horses. I really have always dreamed of it. Plus, A traveling Circus, they always follow the Fall leaves.  Spring, Summer, Fall, they avoid the Winter. Perfect for me.

I'm a Circus dreamer.

I went to Logan, I will blog it later. best. weekend. ever.

peaceout.

Important!

Yes. Yes it is true, I am a bus girl. I ride the bus to college. Thats not all,  its fun.  I really actually enjoy it.
Well so far at least.
I have only rode it twice so far. but I am buying a bus pass, and I will ride it a lot more often. well okay, at least one a week. hah... Well I won't lie. it was very stressful the first time... I mean, first of all it leave at 7:22 in the morning. If you know me, then you know that I don't function properly before 10:00. Seriously. So of course I slept in. but I still got there on time! Impressive, I know. So the bus leaves from Ihop in Springville. I had two dollars and I had no idea what to do with them. so when I got on the bus, I turned to the driver and asked if I could pay him.... Well, apparently that question didn't make any sense at all, because he stared at me like- what the heck girl. who are you.  So I tried again, Sir, I need to pay... for the ride... how do I do that?

"You unfold the money, and put it where it says Insert money"  oh. right. thanks.

after that every thing went fine. same on the ride home, except that time I just had two dollars in quarters, so it took fooooorevver to put them all through, and everyone was annoyed. but whatever. I'm a bus girl.
hopefully the bus will still work with my work. I have to work a bunch more. cause I'm moving out.

I'm in logan! I will tell you about it later. Its amazing. Thank you Logan for sharing.

Peace Folks.
ElizaJane

WTF?

I sit down on my bed at the end of the day and remind myself that tomorrow is Monday.

ITS MONDAY

ITS MONDAY

ITS MONDAY.  repeat

 Then I think to myself, what did I accomplish today?

• nothing
• nothing
• nothing
• nothing

Okay. thats a lie. I did

• get air in my tires
• go to church
• go to work
• have a good cry

I don't know what it is, but I need something more to my life. 

I CAN'T KEEP THIS UP. 

I'm going to break down. Completely.

I don't know how to slow it down.

I feel like I'm drowning. 

12:34. Make a Wish.

It was 12:34. And I was basically just wondering through my day, when finally it hit me ( at 1-2-3-4. did you notice that?? To me, its a perfect time for a wish, if you do that kind of thing. .) well it hit me that today, is in fact, Thursday. Yes folks, Thursday. Do you know what that means?? Tomorrow will land on Friday. Yes yes yes, Friday. I have no idea where the week went. At all. I really think I lost it. One day I am waking up getting ready for Monday to happen, and the next second its Thursday that is happening. Not only happening, but half way done with happening! It is the most beautiful time of the year. Fall. In lovely Mapleton. On a Thursday. And it makes me so happy! Except one thing. I feel like I am at a pause. Paused in the middle of a dead end song. I'll have to admit. I hate trying at school. I hate going in general. and homework? yeah right. I hate my job. but it brings in money, and money brings potential. I just want to be satisfied with my life. Happy with what I am doing. At least half way satisfied. at least. I was so excited for everything new in my life. and old. and almost new and some-what old. and I was SO excited for school. Being a college kid. doing college girl things. loving it and being better than everyone else. Sounds like the life, yes? Yes. but not. But it should be! So HOW. HOWW. HOW CAN I DO THIS. AND DO IT THE RIGHT COLLEGE GIRL WAY? I need to know. stop keeping the secret from me. This is starting to get very, VERY important. So go ahead, any day now. just let me know what I am doing wrong. and tell me how to fix it. Thanks. 


Now thats out of the way. I went to a haunted house the other night. With Tyler. and some people. I WAS SUCH A BABY. wow. how embarrassing. I really don't know what happened really. I was just so scared. WHY. They cant even freaking touch me. I stopped remembering to breath and walk all at the same time, but of course I tried to act as normal as possible. It was all I could do too keep myself from grabbing his arm ( well. it was already in a death grab. ) but it was all i could do from not breaking down and running head first out of there. Well. yeah, I was really to scared to let go of his arm and run away alone...  So I didn't. I just closed my eyes and stumbled through till the end. (WHICH BY THE WAY IT NEVER FREAKING ENDED. well eventually it did. but it took FREAKING FOREVER.) 
Now when I think about it, WHY was I scared?? Fine. okay. I'm a baby. 


There are five different blogs I read of five different girls. 
They make my life so much better lately. And they don't even know it. I really laugh till I cry I love every single minute of reading what they read. I look at each of their blogs every single day. just waiting for something new to make me laugh. Keep going please. hey thanks. 


I'm moving out. after December. Yep. Me. Moving out of my basement. YEAHWHOOYEAHA! *loudly*


Im reading MockingJay. I love to read. 
I love to sleep to. 
So I'm off to do some homework. 
So I can sleep. 


goodnight world. 


ElizaJane

Stop. Just look at the trees, watch the sunset. Look at the mountains, count the cars. Watch the rain and smell the rain. Eat. Pray. Love. Laugh. Enjoy. breathe. 

Stop being so unhappy. LOVE YOUR LIFE. 

Just Remember. If the world didn't suck, we'd all fall off. 

ElizaJane.

Even Better....

just watch the clouds.

My Subconscious Effort

I've got it. I realize I do it on a daily basis and very subconsciously. I tend to split up my life into different parts, separate "worlds" some would say. No, it is not some kind of  schizophrenia, or cross personality. Its more of a subconscious effort to keep myself happy.

First is work:

Working at Western Watts, is not something I am proud of. At least I have a job. And money. And time for the job. Its still not something I like to think about all the time. Its definitely not something that makes me happy, thats for sure. Getting yelled at, being an inconvenience to everyones day and knowing it, just isn't my idea of a good time. so, my logical plan is shutting it out when I don't need to think about it. 

Second is School:

This, I will admit is not the best thing to do with school. But. I still do it. I should spend my free time studying and doing homework. I know that. But I don't... I like to just push it all away, and not think about it, until I desperately have to. which really isn't good at all, but I feel just so relaxed about it when I don't worry about anything that has something to do with school. although right when I really need to have something done, it all catches up to me in a big tidal wave of guilt, stupidity, regret, stress, and "HEY STUPID- WHYYY DIDN'T YOU DO THAT WHEN YOU HAD THE CHANCE!!?" <-- that basically sums up my feelings. For some reason, when that tidal wave crashes, those 12 words, yeah. thats all I can ever really say. Lets just say, I'll be lucky if I pass...

Third is Friends and Family:

Yes. Its true. I put my friends and family all in one world all together and pray and hope they get along. Which we all know doesn't really end up that way. ever. So some of the time I split that world with in its self! now, don't get to confused, because its not that hard. every person lives in their own section of the world, and most of the time they don't mingle unless I am there with them. It simplifies things for me. makes it easier to be around them. On occasion they decide to mix themselves around, mingle, mix, talk... sometimes, thats a disaster. I let that catch up all at once if it happens to. ( bad, bad habit of mine. not good for anyone. but DO YOU KNOW HOW TO FIX IT? I SURE DON'T. ) 

Fourth, is my happy time. 

Me time. Showering- a really hot shower, just letting the water run. Singing at the top of my lungs. Car drives, alone with the windows down. Reading- getting lost in a world completely new with nothing of your own worries. Playing my Guitar. Sitting in my bed- either really early in the mornings or really late at night, Sitting on the porch with a hot mug of tea- counting the cars going by. Sitting in the big green chair in my library. Feeling the sun soak through my clothes and having that incredibly warm feeling all over. Things that make me know life is worth it. Things that make me so happy, I can't put into words. 

My fourth world is my favorite place to be. it makes the other three easier to deal with once I have to continue in the reality of life. 

again- No, it is not some kind of  schizophrenia, or cross personality. Its more of a subconscious effort to keep myself happy. and I like it. 

Live a wonderful day! 

ElizaJane.

Needed.

It's True. 


Sometimes I wish so desperately that I had Long Brown Hair, that I put in hair extensions. Mostly randomly on random days and for different occasions. It's something I do. It's something that makes me happy. 


 I love the sound of rain.
I love the feel of rain. 
I love the smell of rain. 
I love the look of rain. 
In short, I love rain. 


Driving home from school, those are one of my most favorite times of the day. A nice long car ride with loud music and no one around. 


Yesterday was even better. 




The sky was beautiful, Just seconds away from a down pour of rain. You could just tell by looking at those clouds. 
So I started home with the windows down, the music up, and singing. cause thats what I do. 
I like taking the back roads home, the freeway gets so backed up after school, plus, those roads are SO pretty right now. the leaves changing, no cars, no buildings, ( well a few. but still ) then it started raining.


 it was so pretty,
 so needed,
 so refreshing. 


keeping the windows down I drove home, getting all wet, taking every backroad possible, just being so incredibly happy to be here. driving. getting wet. not caring about anything. 
Right when I got home reality set back in. Dang. well, it was nice while it lasted. 


I need to write a paper now. I wish you a wonderful day! 




A Bientot- ElizaJane

Maybe I Just Want to Leave.

Change. 


For the better.


Something amazing, new, different, 


away.


I think I need to go. away. and some support wouldn't hurt. I do have a plan. idea. want... need... China. China to teach english. Four months of serving. Four months of a new life. Four months to get my mojo back. I have this amazing idea in my mind, and I can't drop it. I need to go through with this. If I don't, I know I will regret it. At least I can hope I would regret not going. even the thought of doing this gets me all excited. I don't feel like many people think I can do it. It does cost money. my parents don't think I should be paying to go do service. but in order for that to happen, I have to have at least a bachelors degree. and thats so much money and time.... I just need it now. The only thing they (my parents. family. other people.) don't understand, is that I WANT to go. and I WANT to pay to go. Thats the bottom line of service, sacrifice. time. money. me. all of me. and I am willing to do it. I want to go and do it. Who wouldn't. I even found a great friend who would go with me. I can't back down. this is really a MUST in my life now. 


so. I am saving. and saving. and saving. more and more and more andmoreandmoreandmoreandmore. and it will be worth it. and it will work. and we will go. and live in China. cause I want to. I'll make it happen. even if no one thinks I will. I am just not content with my life and how I am living it. I need to do something different and fast or something might just blow up. all over the place. I know this will work. It will. just you wait. I want to love my life, love who I am and what I have done with it. 


Q: why do I have to go halfway across the world to find my mojo? my happiness? content? 


A: -I don't know. I just. do. 


Thank you to those who understand. 


GoodLuck- and GoodNight


ElizaJane

Yes I have a Sister

yes I have a sister.

                   no, we are not twins.
yes, we get that a lot.

"whoa! you two look totally alike!"

people thin we look and act Exactly alike. Personally,
I don't see it.

But I like the Idea.

.... Okay. Maybe we do. 
I think its pretty safe to say that she is My Life. She is the one person I care most about in my life. and the one person I actually care about what she thinks of me and my actions. to me, Everything about her is amazing. she is beautiful and lovely, and always right. Even when she is wrong, to me? she is right. always. I will take her side.


my point is, Amelia is my prize. Lets put it this way. if there was a fire and you had one thing to grab and get out pronto, she would be my one thing I would grab. (it used to be my stuffed bear...) sharing a room with someone for your whole life really means "here you go, now love this person or life is going to be real hard for you"

 I'm just lucky the one I have is such an easy sister to get along with.




very different. but totally the same.

sisters
roommates
best friends

comfort.

for you,
-ElizaJane.

If I Wrote a Song.

Once and a while you see, or hear something that just hits you so hard, you never ever want to forget it. Everyone has it happen, you all know what I'm talking about. Wether it's a picture, a song, a quote. I would even go as far as someone's laugh, the light in their eye's you start to notice when they get really excited about something, a memory. When it happens to me, I always think to myself, " If I ever wrote a song, I would add that. " I tried once, writing songs are much, much harder than it seems. The biggest problem is getting is all to flow.

My hero of music, Regina Spektor. I am pretty sure I first heard her from Kate Clayson. Kate played the piano and sang a bunch of her songs for me once. Wonderful. Thanks to Kate, I found my biggest music obsession of all time. The things Regina Spektor writes, sings, and plays about are truly genius. Blue Lips, lost Wallets, Folding Chairs, Tangerines. She sings them with such simplicity, and passion.  She truly loves what  she sings about.

Every one can learn a little simplicity from Regina Spektor. 

-ElizaJane