yes, yes, I know, my love.

This is how it works, you're young until you're not, you love until you don't, you try until you can't. You laugh until you cry, you cry until you laugh, and everyone must breathe, until their dying breath. So, this is how it works, you peer inside yourself, you take the things you like, and try to love the things you took. Then you take that love you made, and stick it into some- someone else's heart, pumping someone else's blood. Then walking arm in arm, you hope it don't get harmed, but even if it does, you'll just do it all again.

RS


this is one of my most favorite songs, and this is pure genius. 


Its now holiday season, and its cold all the time. I'm freezing 98% of the time. annnnd I still love it. I love listening to christmas music, and drinking hot chocolate, and sitting in front of the fire place, and watching the snow, and reading books. ITs one of the greatest times of the year. eventually I get really sick of it, but then somewhere between August and November I forget that I was sick of it, and look forward to months of cold again. I want to go to salt lake, and walk around temple square. Its my favorite time to go to the temple. they have a new Pirates of the Caribbean coming out on may 20th! but actually I don't know how I feel about that. I want it to be good, but it miiiight not be. buuuut regardless I will probably like it. I'm pretty obsessed with those movies. like harry potter. and lord of the rings. Hey Keith Urban is pretty hot. 

some blizzard. huh.

here's whats up. I totally have a job. in Orem, Part time, 7.50 paying job. ITS THE BEST NEWS EVER GUYS! I am so happy. eh true it is at a clothing store. not my first choice. but its a job. down east basics is where I am going to work, AND it means I can totally move out! I'M REALLY GOING TO MOVE. I didn't really think it was going to happen. but it is. its happening. believe it. I'm trying to. so my only problem is quitting my current job... how. do. you. quit. ?? but I have to do it. and it has to be tonight. crappy but true. so wish me luck.

ThanksGiving is tomorrow. I'm thankful for pie. Apple pie to be exact. 

speaking of thanksgiving. some of my friends are back, for this wonderful holiday. that makes me happy. we went and drank hot chocolate at village inn, cause they have the best hot chocolate. the only problem is, the food smells sooo good. its almost impossible not to buy it. 

I'm a lucky one. I get to see harry potter AGIAN tomorrow! Im thankful for harry potter and ron. and hermione.

the sky has  been so wonderful. as daniel would say, "i just want to kiss it."

so, yeah. 

hey guess what

Harry Potter was so so AMAZING. I'M IN LOVE. OBSESSED. PASSIONATE. WHATEVER. I JUST LOVED IT.
annnd the nude scene? SO over blown. like, my initial thought was " wtf making out with no shirt on? gross. why." but now that I saw it in context, it makes sense. not that I approve, cause i don't, I just don't see it as such a big deal as some people made it.

I live at home, so i guess that automatically gives my parents right to lectures. Just not in my bedroom dammit. this is MY comfortable place. not somewhere for you to come in and make me miserable.

my sister hurt her tail bone. that makes me worried and sad for her. I hate to see her hurt. its horrible. but i think that my sister is awesome.

cauliflower is much better hot with cheese sauce on it.

I have a new song on my guitar. inspired be Mindy Gledhill.

I have used 'spell check' so many times on this post its not even funny. except it is pretty funny cause I just realized it and started laughing.

my painting is turning out fabulous. I love it. that makes me feel so good.

Lemonade is my favorite drink in the world. I love it and will drink it at any time of the day. I also love cheese cake, and thanksgiving is coming up so I am allowed to request cheese cake for dessert. and i think i will.

and today is Friday. what a wonderful word. some of my friends are coming back home to visit for Thanksgiving i.e. Trevor and Mego. that means I can round up megan from orem, and we can go PARTY. whayeah!

NO. SERIOUSLY GUYS.

GREAT NEWS GUYS. IM GOING TO SEE THE WONDERFUL HARRY POTTER AND THE DEATHLY HALLOWS TOMORROW MORNING INSTEAD OF GOING TO SCHOOL. ME AND MY SISTER ARE GOING AND WE ARE FREAKING OUT!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Oh. and I would marry Fred or George Weasley in a heart beat. Heck, I'd marry them both.

LATER PEOPLE.

Intoxication

Did you happen to notice the weather today? This whole week? Careful. It might decide to rain  water... or snow... or hamburgers and jello....

best. ever.

what I would give to have my own jello castle. 

I would love to see Harry Potter still...

I love lasagna.

HERE ARE TEN REASONS WHY I AM HAPPY RIGHT AT THIS MINUTE 


I love Sarah Kay Benson and I'm going to the Scarlet Pimpernel with her on saturday..... YEA!

nothing smells better than a freshly cut grapefruit---- that should be stitched on a pillow or something.

I have art again tomorrow. we are doing really cool pen and ink drawings with water color over the top, I love it. I am going to start doing them like religiously.  meaning all the time, like I should be doing with prayers or something.

Andy is still alive and well.

I am sending my best friend romantic postcards every other day, I'm sure it makes him laugh. He even might be reading this.... COOOL HUH. Gregory might to. neat!

I found a store in my school that sells cup-o-noodles. for 77cents. yeah. believe it. THATS NOT ALL! I can heat them up in the microwave that happens to be there for FREE. that is a 77 cent lunch. that makes me feel awesome.

I keep having dreams about my soulmate. her name is ChaiDee. (I know you think this might be a little backwards, but don't worry. Its under control)

I love lasagna.

I found this cute Winnie the pooh in German on the internet, and I love watching them. along with that 70 show. those make me laugh so hard.

I can't wait to talk to my sister. she happens to be sleeping right now, but in the morning! I can talk to her about her night. I like hearing what she has to say.

HERE IS ONE REASON WHY I AM UNHAPPY RIGHT AT THIS MINUTE. 


I am not seeing Harry Potter in less than 48 hours like everyone else. If you're (<-- is that even the right your? you're? i have no clue. I just take random stabs at those and hope they are right...) well. if your wondering, I'm very bitter. Im not really seeing it any more mostly cause Gregory had to go get a job. at the cinnamark, and now he is/will be working that night. and I have a feeling he will be working like every night now. thats fine though, I just hope he likes it. which I think he will.



I'm hoping that if I look at life like this, as in more happiness than un... happiness.... then I will realize that my life rocks. and I can live it.

where will I be on the 5th of April in 2011? cause its TOMS international day without shoes. I can tell you where I was on April 5th of 2010,  I was in india. India is a wonderful place. someday I will go back. for now, I will just wear no shoes.

HAPPY? I think so. 

oh and happy birthday alex, I wish you all the happiness in your personal life.

peace out fools.

That whole, "lets be friends" business doesn't last very long. ever. don't let it trick you.

I want to go back to Logan. I want to be there looking at the leaves, playing my guitar, and having wild dance parties, and hanging out with my best friend Trevor. Logan is so beautiful and everyone there is so nice. I can't believe the difference between USU and UVU. It amazes me really. like, at UVU no.one.talks. no one cares, no one wants friends. Me? yeah. I like life. I want to talk. I want friends. but no one there is very accommodating thats for sure. I mean, I have made some friends, but the two friends I actually like- they went to high school with me. So some new people would be nice to. but, me and my two friends new friends from high school are taking Yoga next semester! I'm so excited. these girls are great.

I'm currently finding a new job. Status: employed but hating it. applied for 5+ jobs. waiting.

later gator.

Red.

usually there

are tears. 

they are what

keep me going.

for once, I was

balanced. sane. happy.

now I broke it. 

but your still here. will

it stay that

way?

it usually doesn't.

for once, there

are no tears.

no regrets. no second 

thoughts. life

goes on.

stay in my 

life. please. 

Would you rather...

Would you rather live in a world where Fall did not exist OR where all we ever knew is Fall?

I would rather live where all I knew was Fall. Those beautiful colors, I could never, never get sick of them.  Sadly, winter always comes. and it came today. Snow, guys, snow. This is the time of year where my desperate wish to join the Circus comes back. A traveling Circus, with trains, elephants, and lions and tight-rope walkers and horses. I really have always dreamed of it. Plus, A traveling Circus, they always follow the Fall leaves.  Spring, Summer, Fall, they avoid the Winter. Perfect for me.

I'm a Circus dreamer.

I went to Logan, I will blog it later. best. weekend. ever.

peaceout.

Important!

Yes. Yes it is true, I am a bus girl. I ride the bus to college. Thats not all,  its fun.  I really actually enjoy it.
Well so far at least.
I have only rode it twice so far. but I am buying a bus pass, and I will ride it a lot more often. well okay, at least one a week. hah... Well I won't lie. it was very stressful the first time... I mean, first of all it leave at 7:22 in the morning. If you know me, then you know that I don't function properly before 10:00. Seriously. So of course I slept in. but I still got there on time! Impressive, I know. So the bus leaves from Ihop in Springville. I had two dollars and I had no idea what to do with them. so when I got on the bus, I turned to the driver and asked if I could pay him.... Well, apparently that question didn't make any sense at all, because he stared at me like- what the heck girl. who are you.  So I tried again, Sir, I need to pay... for the ride... how do I do that?

"You unfold the money, and put it where it says Insert money"  oh. right. thanks.

after that every thing went fine. same on the ride home, except that time I just had two dollars in quarters, so it took fooooorevver to put them all through, and everyone was annoyed. but whatever. I'm a bus girl.
hopefully the bus will still work with my work. I have to work a bunch more. cause I'm moving out.

I'm in logan! I will tell you about it later. Its amazing. Thank you Logan for sharing.

Peace Folks.
ElizaJane